So, all 1 or 2 of my readers may have noticed that I haven't written on my new-found blog for a few days. I clearly haven't been in the right headspace. Sadly, on Tuesday, February 3rd, a beautiful, sunny, blue-sky day, I was let go from the company that I had worked for for 10 years. I had been through cycles of people being let go over the years and always thankfully and humbly avoided the dreaded "white envelope". However, on Tuesday, the white envelope had my name on it.
As I play and replay this day in my mind, I recognize that I most definitely experienced all of the emotions one might feel when they are let go. It kind of went something like this:
Disbelief
"What? Me? Really? Wow."
Anger
"Seriously, is this happening? After all that I have done for this company for 10 years?"
Sadness
"This is really sad. I so didn't want it to end like this. I am really going to miss this place and all of my friends"
Rationalization
"I get it. I understand why this had to happen. I know it isn't personal"
Confusion
"What do I do now? How does this work"
Hope
"Maybe this will be ok. Maybe this is the start to a new adventure for me. It will be ok"
I actually landed on "Hope" pretty quickly. Thanks to an amazing group of co-workers (or, former co-workers!), friends and family I have been able to get through this time fairly smoothly. However, the turning point for me, was when my two young children, in unison, yelled "Yippeee! we get to have a mummy day today, tomorrow, the next day and the next". How could you not hang on to hope when your ears are filled with this music.
